The Struggle is Real

So, as you all know I pretty much have no job. I pretty much work once a week now which is enough to cover my current bills. My mom is still struggling finding a job, and I've been responding to ads left and right.

While trying to find a job, I'm also trying to work my business and figure out the best way to be an entrepreneur. I've been reading and watching people, and I've come to learn that the best way to tackle this is to completely be myself. Bring something new that I'm comfortable in, but the question is how?

I do know that if I keep thinking and doing nothing, I won't get anywhere.

Going All In or Stopping Midway

I don't get this business that I'm doing... actually I don't really get why I'm even doing this. I started in 2014, and I haven't really done much with it.

Sometimes I really have to wonder what really drives me to keep going? I feel like there is something that keeps me going that I, myself, do not realize. How many of you have felt like that? Even at this moment, I wonder what it means to keep a "blog". In a world where the internet is crowded with so much information, it's hard to be acknowledged in such a vast ocean.

I remember when I first started my journey. You start to see other people become successful, and you start to wonder if you can obtain wealth easily as well. It's amazing how people make it look so easy when in reality it really isn't. Presently, I've always been wary of what others may of thought of me. How I look to people? How I present myself? If I act a little out of ordinary, will people turn away? In the midst of all this, I've lost sense of who I am.

So as I slowly build my business, I am also learning to slowly build myself. If you're going to go all in, make sure you're being authentic. I'm not authentic at all, but it doesn't mean I won't learn along the way.

Fast Lane Development

So apparently I read fast...

Astonishing actually since I never really noticed. I've actually never read consistently until the past couple of months or so. I wanted to know what it was like to be the best version of myself, so I picked up personal development books.

After all, I've always been talking about fitness and trying to change my physical look. Why not work on all aspects of my life? I found out I could practically read 1-2 books per week! I find it amazing and I don't find it boring at all. I find the more I read the more engrossed I am into the book I am reading.

I really recommend everyone to incorporate reading into their lives especially if you feel like you're in stress. It really calms me down and keeps me in perspective!